Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Life Totally SUCKS!
My cousin Cheryl called tonight. Her dad my Uncle Vance was in the hospital when my dad was. She is on her way home again, because he is not doign well and is not expected to recover! Cheryl, Ed, Brian and Doug just lost their mom(My dad's little sister) not that long ago. Why is all this happening?? I want to be angry at someone have someone to blame, but I just dont know who that is!? I seem to have lost my way as well! All the time dad was sick and dieing I had awesome faith is His will being done and that daddy would from peace. Since his funeral I have not prayed once, I can still feel His presence but I just cant seem to let the words come. I miss my daddy! If anyone is reading this please pray for my Uncle Vance and family.
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I'll add him to the list at church, what is his last name.
I don't believe that you have lost your way. Do you know how I know that? Not once when you said you were trying to find someone to blame, did you blame God!
I believe right now, that you can stop being the strong one. there are enough of us around you to support you. And when you are ready, God will put you back on your OWN feet. And he will just walk beside you.
his name is vance shuttleworth
i am not sure i know how not to be the strong one...
first stop being so damn stubborn. ok, just had to throw that one out there.!
it's not stopping being strong, it's just knowing that you can't do it on your own. You have to realize that it is ok for others to do for you. You don't have to do it all for everyone else! they need to learn to be strong too!
look at it this way. your weight loss. did you do it all on your own? Yes, you do part of it on your own. but did/do you have people that helped you when you needed it or even when you didn't/don't realize that you did/do?
it's the same thing w/ grieving. you have to do some of that on your own. but you can't also shut people out when they want to help. Most of us know when you need quite time to reflect, but we also know that sometimes we are going to drag you kicking and screaming out of the reflecting time.
It's ok to remember the past, good and the bad. but remember you also have to live in the present and dream of the future.
ok, I've babbled enough!
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