My Blessed Journey

Fisherman's Prayer: I pray that I may live to fish until my dying day. And when it comes to my last cast,I then most humbly pray, when in the Lord's great landing net and peacefully asleep that in His mercy I be judged BIG ENOUGH TO KEEP!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Feeling Guilty

So I have been thinking about what I will do if Uncle Vance does not make it. A small part of me wants to go back to Kansas for the funeral. Mostly to be support for my cousins that where there for me the last 2 weeks. A bigger part of me doesn't want anything to do with it! I do not nor do I think I can handle a funeral right now. I know my cousins will completely understand. Today on the phone Cheryl told me as much, that my support for her by phone is all she needs and does not expect me or anyone in my family to do more than than because our own pain is still raw. So why do I feel guilty for not wanting to go home!?
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bjfletch said...

OK I'M YELLING AT YOU NOW!!!!......Stop trying to take care of everyone else now! You have nothing to feel guilty about. Damn but you are stubborn!.........It's ok if you can't handle another funneral right now. YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO!.........Your cousins know the pain you're feeling right now. your feelings are still to raw.......You have nothing to feel guilty about. but I would like you think about this.....Funnerals are really not for the dead..They are for the LIVING. (Which last time I looked, you are!) they are a time for family and friends to share memories and remember the one that has passed........ You can look at it this way. Will you regret not going?

October 16, 2008 at 9:37 AM

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