So far so good!

I restarted WW again on Sunday and so far its going good! I have stayed with in my points everyday and I worked out Monday and Tuesday. I havent worked out yet tonite but I plan to as soon as I done here on the computer. I got the radiation schedule in the mail today..man for the next 4 weeks I will be doing nothing but going to the Doctor it seems...13th I have to start that low iodine diet(yum yum) 17th I have to do lab that pretty much tests my blood for everything under the sun! 23rd is radiation day at 10am...then my week long seclusion begins! I am so not looking forward to this I cry everytime I think about it. Not only can I not sleep in the same bed as my husband but the boys cant even sleep with me. I have not slept alone in so many years I dont know if I can will be able to now. 29th they do a radiation survery to see how much radiation is still in me. 30th I have to go to Arlington to the cancer center for a full body radiation scan..this is new to me so I will be calling the Dr. tomorrow to find out what the heck this is. Then June 4th at 2pm I see Dr Ammoson(oncologists) follow up and 4pm the same day I see Dr Elliott(surgeon) They will be working together to get me started on Synthroid then turn it over to Dr Addy my regular Dr. After the 4th its weeks and weeks...into possible months of lab works as well. Sound exciting doesnt it!? I can hardly wait..OK I know I sound negative about the whole thing I am trying not to and keep praying to God for strength and guidance to get through it. Right now I just cant see the end of the long road ahead so it feels helpless...I feel helpless and scared and come the week of radiation you can add lonely to the list I am sure. I am not asking anyway to feel sorry for me I know this whole thing could be so much worse than it is I am the lucky one I have a cancer that easily treated and cured but I still have cancer and its scary and overwhelming most days, even when I pray I feel the release of it all but then when I least expect it it all comes back with a vengence. God Please help me I need your strength to get through this. I keep getting referred back to the old saying of Footprints in the Sand..even though there is only one set of footprints I know God is there with me carrying me through this.

I am Blessed!