Emotional Eating

I have been SOOOOOOOOOO out of control this week! I can not stop eating and making very bad decisions on what I do eat. I had the emotional eating under control and I was in control of it until 2 weeks ago. The stress and anxiety of all the surgeries, the fact that I have cancer, and the radiation still ahead has totally unraveled my life. Come Saturday when it is time to weigh in I will so pay for those decisions I know I will have a gain this week. Sunday I am restarting and taking back that control. Its too late to do anything about it now to stop a gain from happening on Saturday so I am just going to ease my way back into and keep praying to God for guidance and strength. Of couse in another week I will have no choice anyway because I will have to be on the low iodine diet before and after radiation. I have also let the fatigue take control this week and havent worked out at all I have been in bed by 830pm slept all night and still wake up tired. I just have to see it through the doctors said it will be this way until I can start snythroid after radiation. So along with taking back the control of eating on Sunday I am also making a commitment to workout even if it is just 20 muinutes a day I have to do something. Bruce says not to that I need to conserve my energy. But there is no energy to conserve so I might as well just push through the tiredness and keep going, even if I fall on my face out of exhaustion. I was so excited about starting to run again not the thought of running makes me want to fall down and cry. I am getting a new treadmill in the next 2 weeks so I may just wait until I get that one before I start because it it a totally different one than the one I have and may have different effect on how and run and the energy for it. Now I have to go take a nap before I have to go back to work.....God please bless me with the energy to get through this day and to get my life back!

I am Blessed!