An Answered Prayer

All the way from Kansas back to Fort Worth I kept thinking of all the things I wanted to write in my blog(when I wasnt sleeping of course..LOL) I had so many things, just being home, grandma, my dad!, everything about the trip! But when I did get to Fort Worth and called my mom to tell her we had made it home OK that all changed nothing else seem to matter more than this! Billy! I have know for sometime now that Billy's days where coming to an end! That dog is so much more than a dog. He has been through everything with my dad for nearly 16 years! At times when the weather was too hot or too cold and dad couldnt go anywhere for days Billy was his only companion and faithful to the end! At one time my dad went NO where with out Billy riding along in the front seat. They were quite a pair. When I got home Saturday and saw Billy my heart just broke I knew his time was now. I picked him up and talked to him told him that is was the most special dog in the world and God was waiting for him to play with the tennis ball. I started praying right then that God would have mercy on Billy and let him go in his sleep at home with dad they way he would want to go and not suffer anymore. Also I didnt want my parents to have to actaully make the decision (although they already had) to put him to sleep. I didnt want that burben on them. I prayed all night and first thing Sunday morning started praying again. God answered that prayer! When I called Mom to tell her we were home safe she said Billy had fallen asleep in his favorite place and is now at peace! God Bless! My heart is breaking but also is relieved that god answered that prayer! Even though it was and is still hard for my dad to deal with it right now he had already accepted it and was as ready as you can be for that sort of thing, again I thank God for that. I know my dad has said many many times that he would never have another dog after Billy, I hope in a year or so he may change his mind, there is nothing more comforting than the loyality and love of a dog when you are confined to home. I know in the past few months when I have been going through my surgeries and stuff my three boys have been there the whole way cuddling when I need a hug, just present when I dont want to be alone, and holding me up when I am about to fall. Some people may say oh they are just dogs. But to me they are just as important any other family member! God Bless Billy! I love you and miss you!! Have fun in doggy heaven! Just a side note...For the first 4 years of Blaze's life he always went home with me and played with Billy and shared food and toys with Billy. The last 2 years Blaze has not gone because I now have 3 dogs just not one. That is too many puppies in my moms house..LOL! oh poor Billy! Anyway this time when Bruce and I were leaving for Lyons I told him I wanted to take Blaze. I didnt know why it was never an issue before I just felt I needed and wanted to take Blaze. I now believe it was God saying take Blaze so he to has his chance to say goodbye to Billy! Max and Gunner only met Billy once so I guess thats why I didnt feel the same about them going. So we did ! We took Blaze home with us this weekend and I so glad now that I listened to my heart(God speaking to me) and took Blaze!

I'm Blessed