Rain Rain Go Away!

I seriously think I need to trade my truck in for a boat~! It has rained for nearly 90 percent of the days in the last 3 months here! And this week...every day!! Non stop! Lots of roads are flooded and its so gloomy and depressing! Every day I have my kids at work sing the song rain rain go away....LOL..we are tired of having to stay inside all the time and not having recess...Guess it could be worse! Last year we couldn't go outside because of ozone warnings it was dangerous to breathe the air! Not this year! Anyway..don't know if its the rain or what but even though I am feeling better I am still really tired and worn out! I see the oncologist on Monday so I am hoping he can increase the synthroid and that will help! The house...what a stressful process! We are looking into financing right now and praying we can get something to work out on that end! The house I mentioned before already has a contract on it but we have found another one that we like! I am not even going to talk about it or describe it until I know more on the financing issue! Every time I get excited about a house and start talking about it and planing what to do with it something falls through..so this time! nothing..will give details later for now I am concentrating all my strength into praying about it~its another lazy rainy Saturday here so I guess I am going to just go curl up with a good book to read..well as soon as I get my lesson plan done for next week! wohooo! only 4 days next week! Just wish the holiday was Friday or Monday not a Wednesday! That bites! LOL!

Dare to hope..again!

OK so over the past several months Bruce and I have debated back and forth on weather to look for a house to rent or if we wanted to buy! A friend of his at work a few months ago bought a house and wanted Bruce to come inspect it. I went along for the ride. I LOVED this house. Its a nice 5 bedroom with large room,large spacious living room, two decks on the back of the house both with sliding glass doors, nice size kitchen with large walkin storage. All the bedrooms have walk in closets and the master bathroom has shower and jacuzzi tub. Its in the country a corner lot on one acre of land..lots of privacy and tons of room for the boys to run! Well it turned out his friend had to back out of the deal so we were looking at renting it from the other buyer, and that deal feel through. So we let it go and kept looking,well about a month later this house was brought to our attention again! But as the first time the deal did not go through! Out a second time and I am devasted as I mentioned I love this house. So again I just told my self it wasnt meant to be its not in Gods plan! WELL, here we are again! A third time , third times the charm right!? This time we are actually looking into buying it ourself! I am soooo trying not to get my hopes up because I have been dissapointed already twice but then I keep think why would God keep leading down this same path time after time if we were not meant to be there!? Is this our blessing? dare I hope that it works out this time? Anyway I just keep praying about it and if it is meant to be than its meant to be. I know somewhere there is a house out there that is meant to be our blessing. For some reason God keeps leading us back to this same house! Is his our blessing? Just wish I knew what his plan is for us! But dont we all wish to know those plans......

Catch up

I feel like I havent posted in forever! Its been a week! WOW! I spent the weekend in Kansas with my parents, it was a surprise that we were coming there for my Dads surgery. I rang the doorbell instead of just walking in. My dad answered the door and I thought he was going to have a heart attack right there. Bruce had to catch him from falling over he was so shocked to see us!! I think he was very happy to see us there! After getting back to Fort Worth one of the boys, Gunner was showing abnormal signs, he wasnt eating or showing any interests in any of his favorite toys and was not his normal perky high energy self. Bruce took him to the vet and they kept him over night for observation. His platelets are low which is a sign of some sort of infection and he was constipated! Poor puppy had an enema! He lost 3 pounds!! WOW! He was full of sh%%! LOL So now he is on antibotics and has to go back next week for checkup! Today he is acting full of energy again so I think he is feeling better! I am back to work! I am so exhausted when I get home but not just drained out completly like before so its getting better and I am feel stronger each day. i still crash out when I can but I am waking up easier! I feel like my life is getting back to normal and the cancer thing is almost behind me!! God is good!
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The next step

Well here it is! No more surgeries! No more radiation. I had a test last week that was showing abnormal stuff in my lungs. Both of my drs thought it was nothing to worry about but of course I still worried what if the cancer had spread? The surgeon explained that many times in cancer patients test will show false positives because your entire system is all messed up! But to make sure they run other tests. I had a CT scan of my lungs yesterday! The news today was it is clear and normal! No cancer! Last weeks test was a false positive! So I am officially out of treatment stage and into regulation stage. Which basically means for the next 2 or 3 months its lots of blood test to determine the correct dosage of Synthroid I will need to have to keep my levels normal. I have a follow up test in 6 months then one a year after that for about 5 or 6 years! Wohooo!! I feel, not that I doubted that God has truely answered my prayers and I can now concentrate on getting my "normal" life back. Although I have been released to sleep in the same bed with my husband I am still to radioactive to be around small children for at least the rest of this week. Even though I was disappointed it had turned out that too is a blessing from God! That has allowed us to go back to Kansas this week. Since I cant go to work until next week, Bruce has taken off Thursday and Friday so we can drive back! Thursday my Dad is having shoulder surgery and because of his heart it is a little risky. In all the years of his problems I have NEVER been away when he had surgery I have always been there with my mom. And now God has provided us with the opportunity to be able to be there again! God is Good!! Again I hear in my head over and over the saying I posted the other day Let go and let GOD! He is truly in charge!

I'm Blessed

Wanted to share this

This is from The Daily Word for Weight Loss by Collen Zack & Elaine Meyer.... part of a page called: Let Go & Let God. It seems to be a perfect way for praying for solutions, healing and/or forgiveness.

When someone or some situation seems to be getting me down, I bless the person and the situation and turn everything over to God, saying: "Dear God, I don't know the answer to this challenge, but You do. So I am going to give it to You for a divine solution, knowing that You will let me know what You can do through me and others to heal the situation." . . . . . . . . . .

Let Go and Let GOD! I love that!

As the saga continues

Sometimes I wonder if it will ever end! I am still at home and sleeping alone! Yesterday may radiation levels were down but still not enough! At close range I am still putting out too much to be around children so I still can not go to work! I resurvey AGAIN! Monday so the earliest I can go back to work now is Tuesday! So frustrating! Even though we were told that Bruce and I could sleep in the same bed we were warned not to "cuddle" to closely for long time. Well, since we both have the habit of cuddling up in our sleep without knowing it we decided as much as it killed me that it was safer to wait a few more days! So I continue to go to bed at night alone with out my husband or my boys! The boys too have a tendency to cuddle up on the bed so I dont want them in the room either for their safety. I started Synthroid yesterday too. Even though I am still very tired and sleep more than I am awake when I am awake I am awake not drozy or foggy I am more alert. So I guess it a good thing, its slowly getting better! One step at a time right! Even though I want to take 4 giant steps ahead I cant I have to take one slow step at a time! But hey its a step ahead not back! So at least I am heading in the right direction!
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